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You’ve left us so suddenly…
I was caught off-guard, I wanted to hold on to you
I didn’t want to accept that you’ve moved on
I was paralyzed, I was puzzled
And I was deeply saddened
But since you were ready
And holding on to you
Will only keep you in unrest
I will let you go now
I will strive to move on
But you will be missed
Sorry that I wasn’t able to spend so much time with you
But all the times I did, will always be remembered
And cherished
Thanks for taking me to the movies with you, City of Angels and everything else
Thanks for the little gifts you gave me
The yellow shirt, the little small stuff – for letting me share your incense sticks with you
For letting me borow your shoes
And for being there, for your words of wisdom
And for sharing your thoughts with me…
I will hold them dear always..
I know you want me not to shed a tear anymore, but I just can’t stop myself
I will miss you, but I am no longer as sad and as depressed so worry no more
And rest….
I know that even when we no longer see you
You will live on..
And we will see you soon…
04/02/08 @ 2:12PM _nmed_
You’ve left us so suddenly…
I was caught off-guard, I wanted to hold on to you
I didn’t want to accept that you’ve moved on
I was paralyzed, I was puzzled
And I was deeply saddened
But since you were ready
And holding on to you
Will only keep you in unrest
I will let you go now
I will strive to move on
But you will be missed
Sorry that I wasn’t able to spend so much time with you
But all the times I did, will always be remembered
And cherished
Thanks for taking me to the movies with you, City of Angels and everything else
Thanks for the little gifts you gave me
The yellow shirt, the little small stuff – for letting me share your incense sticks with you
For letting me borow your shoes
And for being there, for your words of wisdom
And for sharing your thoughts with me…
I will hold them dear always..
I know you want me not to shed a tear anymore, but I just can’t stop myself
I will miss you, but I am no longer as sad and as depressed so worry no more
And rest….
I know that even when we no longer see you
You will live on..
And we will see you soon…
04/02/08 @ 2:12PM _nmed_
Hey.. those of you who live in Cebu City and dream of vacationing outside the Philippines…. I urge you to hold-off on those for now and smell the flowers growing in your own backyard…. (I of course was being figurative about that last part of the sentence but I have no opposition whatsoever if you decide to take its message literally..)
Yesterday, February 11, Monday…. my love and I went joyriding to Busay.. this would be the first for this year.. I was hugging him all the way, the secondary reason being it was brrr.. really cold, (there was even fog) on a midday when the city would be saturated with heat evaporating from the asphalt and the hot air signaling the coming of the Lenten Season…
We were going to the visit the spot where we saw a paradise of a rice field, would you believe, in the mountains of Busay? Didn’t go all the way there because we had to be back before afternoon cuz we had a life in the city we had to leave to get a few minutes of fresh air and a nice get-away… Anyway, on our way back, while he was driving and I was admiring the view, I saw a little bird perched on a hanging broken branch of a tree and he was on it like it was a see-saw… It was like the bird was making the branch move and was having fun doing it… I of course, because I get all warm and fuzzy with these things, asked.. ok begged that we stop over for a short while so I could get a picture or a video of the bird.. (you never know when National Geographic would come knocking on your door, right, I should at least be ready..) So we headed a few distances back, so not to get the little bird startled, Itoy had to turn off the engine because his customized "tambutcho" (what do you call this in English again? grrrr.. I should go back to school.. am getting really slow on these things..) was making too much noise… I slowly made my way, being very careful not to disturb the little bird perched on the tree but also the cow resting nicely on the grassy ground near me… This of course, didn’t work, for the reason that the bird might be smarter than me or was probably just a little too shy and didn’t want to be part of my National Geographic fantasies.. (I should ask if it knew what the English word for tambucho was…)
So, we were off again.. we stopped over the stores selling sweet sweet sweet corn (try one of those and you’ll agree there should be another word in the dictionary to describe how yummy it truly is….), I ate 1, Itoy ate 2.. I could’ve beat him to it, I just had a nice lunch and had breakfast too… I also bought a nice, very affordable squash, my mom makes this really delicious Korean-inspired porridge.
We then we’re off to a place called Gov. Leyson’s Peak (must be one of those politician’s dreams of naming places after them… why is that?).. Anyway, its a nice cool place (and by cool I mean the literal meaning…) it even felt like there was a typhoon over there, it was very cold, even my jacket was no match! We took a few pictures, some videos, (Itoy and I are both really good photographers and models…) and when we had enough of it, left the place…. not without me saying thank you to the little lady who was manning the place, who I could swear was all-frowns before I said thanks…. (not sure if the smile was caused by us leaving or by me saying thank you though..)… I’ll try putting those pictures in my friendster account as soon as I have the time to deal with the hardware issues one has to tackle when downloading pictures or videos from a cellphone…
Then, we went back to civilization.. a little sad that our date with mother nature had to end because we had lives to live in the city…. But someday hoping to be able to acquire enough money to get our very own parcel of land in this paradise…. We were joking about putting up a little bahay kubo or a little store somewhere in Busay and then making our way into getting a house built… Well, it has to start somewhere, right? We even had our little plan of attack, this paycheck, he’s gonna get some nails and I some hollow blocks…. hehehhehe…. Yeah, I know we’re both really silly.. I guess that’s why we get along so well..
Well, my bed is calling out to me now.. but not without me explaining why the title of this blog and the first paragraph has nothing to do with its contents…. The message I really wanted to share was that I am encouraging people to see and experience the wonders that we have right here in Cebu before jumping off to other places… You will really be amazed at how lovely Busay is and how inexpensive it would be to appreciate it.. We didn’t even have to spend so much, just some gasoline and we were in paradise…. breathing fresh air, seeing the lush greenery that is Cebu and loving the simplicity of life. Yeah, I know, I am again being over-dramatic about these things but it is a wonder to behold and it is within your reach so why not go for it!
Also, if you’re not like me who just loves to look at trees swaying to the wind but prefer some sort of urbanized comfort, there are a lot of "tambayans" sprouting in the area; there is one just near the stalls where they sell the fresh veggies and the sweet corn, it is being constructed now, and I think the entrance fee is less than 50 pesos.. it should be a cool place to hang out it, they have a small duck pond, some little huts to lounge in and a store for your muchies… There is also one being constructed just below the road to Tops, a nice native-looking gazebo with a view to kill… (hopefully the phrase not to be construed literally because it honestly can be when you see the place…. it’ll be a long way down if you accidentally fall…).. and there are still a lot of other nice places to hang out it.. I got a feeling there are a lot more of those coming….
So, if you ever get a free Saturday, why don’t you bring your loved ones or a few friends and experience this simple yet breathtaking beauty that is Busay!!! You never know, you just might see something more than just a little bird swaying on a little branch.. and you might even get some pictures to prove it too!!!
nmed @ 2:45PM, Tuesday, Februrary 12, 2008 @ home
picture from http://www.pbase.com/gsbana/image/21501206 by Dean Swope
Hey.. those of you who live in Cebu City and dream of vacationing outside the Philippines…. I urge you to hold-off on those for now and smell the flowers growing in your own backyard…. (I of course was being figurative about that last part of the sentence but I have no opposition whatsoever if you decide to take its message literally..)
Yesterday, February 11, Monday…. my love and I went joyriding to Busay.. this would be the first for this year.. I was hugging him all the way, the secondary reason being it was brrr.. really cold, (there was even fog) on a midday when the city would be saturated with heat evaporating from the asphalt and the hot air signaling the coming of the Lenten Season…
We were going to the visit the spot where we saw a paradise of a rice field, would you believe, in the mountains of Busay? Didn’t go all the way there because we had to be back before afternoon cuz we had a life in the city we had to leave to get a few minutes of fresh air and a nice get-away… Anyway, on our way back, while he was driving and I was admiring the view, I saw a little bird perched on a hanging broken branch of a tree and he was on it like it was a see-saw… It was like the bird was making the branch move and was having fun doing it… I of course, because I get all warm and fuzzy with these things, asked.. ok begged that we stop over for a short while so I could get a picture or a video of the bird.. (you never know when National Geographic would come knocking on your door, right, I should at least be ready..) So we headed a few distances back, so not to get the little bird startled, Itoy had to turn off the engine because his customized "tambutcho" (what do you call this in English again? grrrr.. I should go back to school.. am getting really slow on these things..) was making too much noise… I slowly made my way, being very careful not to disturb the little bird perched on the tree but also the cow resting nicely on the grassy ground near me… This of course, didn’t work, for the reason that the bird might be smarter than me or was probably just a little too shy and didn’t want to be part of my National Geographic fantasies.. (I should ask if it knew what the English word for tambucho was…)
So, we were off again.. we stopped over the stores selling sweet sweet sweet corn (try one of those and you’ll agree there should be another word in the dictionary to describe how yummy it truly is….), I ate 1, Itoy ate 2.. I could’ve beat him to it, I just had a nice lunch and had breakfast too… I also bought a nice, very affordable squash, my mom makes this really delicious Korean-inspired porridge.
We then we’re off to a place called Gov. Leyson’s Peak (must be one of those politician’s dreams of naming places after them… why is that?).. Anyway, its a nice cool place (and by cool I mean the literal meaning…) it even felt like there was a typhoon over there, it was very cold, even my jacket was no match! We took a few pictures, some videos, (Itoy and I are both really good photographers and models…) and when we had enough of it, left the place…. not without me saying thank you to the little lady who was manning the place, who I could swear was all-frowns before I said thanks…. (not sure if the smile was caused by us leaving or by me saying thank you though..)… I’ll try putting those pictures in my friendster account as soon as I have the time to deal with the hardware issues one has to tackle when downloading pictures or videos from a cellphone…
Then, we went back to civilization.. a little sad that our date with mother nature had to end because we had lives to live in the city…. But someday hoping to be able to acquire enough money to get our very own parcel of land in this paradise…. We were joking about putting up a little bahay kubo or a little store somewhere in Busay and then making our way into getting a house built… Well, it has to start somewhere, right? We even had our little plan of attack, this paycheck, he’s gonna get some nails and I some hollow blocks…. hehehhehe…. Yeah, I know we’re both really silly.. I guess that’s why we get along so well..
Well, my bed is calling out to me now.. but not without me explaining why the title of this blog and the first paragraph has nothing to do with its contents…. The message I really wanted to share was that I am encouraging people to see and experience the wonders that we have right here in Cebu before jumping off to other places… You will really be amazed at how lovely Busay is and how inexpensive it would be to appreciate it.. We didn’t even have to spend so much, just some gasoline and we were in paradise…. breathing fresh air, seeing the lush greenery that is Cebu and loving the simplicity of life. Yeah, I know, I am again being over-dramatic about these things but it is a wonder to behold and it is within your reach so why not go for it!
Also, if you’re not like me who just loves to look at trees swaying to the wind but prefer some sort of urbanized comfort, there are a lot of "tambayans" sprouting in the area; there is one just near the stalls where they sell the fresh veggies and the sweet corn, it is being constructed now, and I think the entrance fee is less than 50 pesos.. it should be a cool place to hang out it, they have a small duck pond, some little huts to lounge in and a store for your muchies… There is also one being constructed just below the road to Tops, a nice native-looking gazebo with a view to kill… (hopefully the phrase not to be construed literally because it honestly can be when you see the place…. it’ll be a long way down if you accidentally fall…).. and there are still a lot of other nice places to hang out it.. I got a feeling there are a lot more of those coming….
So, if you ever get a free Saturday, why don’t you bring your loved ones or a few friends and experience this simple yet breathtaking beauty that is Busay!!! You never know, you just might see something more than just a little bird swaying on a little branch.. and you might even get some pictures to prove it too!!!
nmed @ 2:45PM, Tuesday, Februrary 12, 2008 @ home
picture from http://www.pbase.com/gsbana/image/21501206 by Dean Swope
Again, true to my contradicting nature, I am today writing a list of the jobs I would love doing (yes.. after I just wrote an entry about not wanting to work…) These are of course, under the presumption that such jobs exist, are actually available, and pay enough to sustain life…
Why am I writing this list? Because I realized that there just might be things (read:jobs) that I could consider doing for a long time…
And so my list goes:
1. Subtitle writer for DVDs (can you imagine how nice it would be to make a living out of watching DVDs??? Its like a dream come true!! Besides, wouldn’t you want DVDs that actually have CORRECT subtitles and make sense for a change?? I know I would!!
2. Taste tester for new ice cream flavors (or new chocolate, or new candy, or new anything.. as long as it IS food)… Aside from the fact that you are the first person to get your tongue on these goodies, you also help decide what is made available to the world!!! Isn’t that something you should get an award on???
3. Photographer or camera man for events that feature babies, pets (except exotic and scary ones..), food, nature, travel, amazing miracles, and exciting games…. It would be your ticket to the best things in life; you get to see it, feel it, and most of all capture it and share to everyone…. isn’t that what matters most? How good is something if you can’t share it to the rest of the world? Such is the power of those that hold the lens, they can capture and share the feeling…
4. Talk show host… nope, not the Oprah type of talk shows, more like The Ellen de Generes show or the Iron Chef (I don’t really think that falls under the category of talk shows though…), or a travel show… I think that by being a talk show host, I get to meet a lot of people, influence a lot of people and decisions, and have fun all at the same time…. No, I do not crave the elegance or power, not even the money that comes with fame, I think by being a talk show host, I can do what I love best, TALKING and listening to people….
5. Santa Claus (although this would be a seasonal job, I would love to be one all year round…) I don’t necessarily have to bear gifts for everyone but I would love to be just Santa because there is something about him that makes people feel better… Somehow it makes people feel good to have someone "physically there" to make hopeful wishes to or even just vent at and I guess I can do that job pretty well..
6. Mascot (the wholesome ones of course!), except probably for the heavy and I-cannot-breathe-and-see-anything-here suit, it would be a blast being a mascot! You get to do a lot of things not all normal people can do and you can get away with it too, you can give a lot of laughter and maybe occasional frights but it just seems like a whole lot of fun to be a mascot. Even if you just sit in a corner and sulk, somehow your presence just seems to make a lot of people smile and I think that is indeed a "fulfilling job" to have…
7. Apple-picker or any kind of nice fruits and vegetables and flowers too… I dunno, told you am weird right, but there is just something about harvesting fresh fruits and vegetables that makes me feel good.. Aside probably from the biological benefits that you get because you are near them (the give off Oxygen, right?), it just feels good to be with one with nature… Aside from that feeling, I can pretend that the entire hectares of land are actually mine and that I am just harvesting so I have some to eat or cook… Hmmm… now that would be a nice picture indeed…
8. Gift wrapper …. (although I know that due to Christmas season, it would probably be one of the most "pressured jobs" to be in.. but would it be fun to think that you are coming to work wrapping gifts?? I might even end up asking myself if I am actually working…) I just think wrapping gifts is a great therapy and good for the self-esteem.. its a great therapy because you can be creative and work with your hands… good for the self-esteem because it sort of reminds you daily that there is still generosity in the world. And besides, it tickles your imagination thinking about how the recipient of the gift will unravel the little bundle of surprise he has been given and how his eyes twinkle when it is handed to him… (sorry, I can be overly dramatic with these things….)
9. Children’s book storyteller or story reader… are there actually people who do this for a living? If there are, please let me know where I should be sending my resume?? To be surrounded by young minds and to be in a position where you can help mold minds is a nice thing to be part of… aside from that, you can be childlike again and relive these stories with them…. You can travel without having to take a step and you can see people, places and things by just closing your eyes…. (I know, too theatrical.. but remind me again whose blog this is??)
10. PA for Ellen de Generes…. ok, so it might not sound like a logical idea to put this in my list but believe me, this has a deeply rooted reason for being… I don’t just want to be a PA because she is famous or what.. I want to be one because I think she is fun and funny and a true person. I see her on her TV show and she is not like any of the stars, she seems like such a real person. I feel like if I were a star, I would be her.. Funny, fun, wears sneakers all the time, cracks the most satiric jokes at times, cool and elegant without an effort! If I were to be someones Personal Assistant (or "dakilang alalay"), it would be her!!!
Hmmmm… this is definitely not the end of my list but I have to stop or my wonderful and beloved nephew will never take his mind off getting his hands on the computer – because he sees me doing so and has this tendency to IMITATE whatever we do…. So, I am going to end my list at 10 for now but if I get more PC-time later, I will add to this list…
10 on my list for now???? Well, what do you know… there are actually a lot of jobs I love to do…. Hmmm… why am I not surprised that even if I said I DON’T WANT TO WORK FOREVER, there just are things I might consider ACTUALLY doing forever…
nmed @ 12:30noon
December 23, 2007, Sunday @ home
Again, true to my contradicting nature, I am today writing a list of the jobs I would love doing (yes.. after I just wrote an entry about not wanting to work…) These are of course, under the presumption that such jobs exist, are actually available, and pay enough to sustain life…
Why am I writing this list? Because I realized that there just might be things (read:jobs) that I could consider doing for a long time…
And so my list goes:
1. Subtitle writer for DVDs (can you imagine how nice it would be to make a living out of watching DVDs??? Its like a dream come true!! Besides, wouldn’t you want DVDs that actually have CORRECT subtitles and make sense for a change?? I know I would!!
2. Taste tester for new ice cream flavors (or new chocolate, or new candy, or new anything.. as long as it IS food)… Aside from the fact that you are the first person to get your tongue on these goodies, you also help decide what is made available to the world!!! Isn’t that something you should get an award on???
3. Photographer or camera man for events that feature babies, pets (except exotic and scary ones..), food, nature, travel, amazing miracles, and exciting games…. It would be your ticket to the best things in life; you get to see it, feel it, and most of all capture it and share to everyone…. isn’t that what matters most? How good is something if you can’t share it to the rest of the world? Such is the power of those that hold the lens, they can capture and share the feeling…
4. Talk show host… nope, not the Oprah type of talk shows, more like The Ellen de Generes show or the Iron Chef (I don’t really think that falls under the category of talk shows though…), or a travel show… I think that by being a talk show host, I get to meet a lot of people, influence a lot of people and decisions, and have fun all at the same time…. No, I do not crave the elegance or power, not even the money that comes with fame, I think by being a talk show host, I can do what I love best, TALKING and listening to people….
5. Santa Claus (although this would be a seasonal job, I would love to be one all year round…) I don’t necessarily have to bear gifts for everyone but I would love to be just Santa because there is something about him that makes people feel better… Somehow it makes people feel good to have someone "physically there" to make hopeful wishes to or even just vent at and I guess I can do that job pretty well..
6. Mascot (the wholesome ones of course!), except probably for the heavy and I-cannot-breathe-and-see-anything-here suit, it would be a blast being a mascot! You get to do a lot of things not all normal people can do and you can get away with it too, you can give a lot of laughter and maybe occasional frights but it just seems like a whole lot of fun to be a mascot. Even if you just sit in a corner and sulk, somehow your presence just seems to make a lot of people smile and I think that is indeed a "fulfilling job" to have…
7. Apple-picker or any kind of nice fruits and vegetables and flowers too… I dunno, told you am weird right, but there is just something about harvesting fresh fruits and vegetables that makes me feel good.. Aside probably from the biological benefits that you get because you are near them (the give off Oxygen, right?), it just feels good to be with one with nature… Aside from that feeling, I can pretend that the entire hectares of land are actually mine and that I am just harvesting so I have some to eat or cook… Hmmm… now that would be a nice picture indeed…
8. Gift wrapper …. (although I know that due to Christmas season, it would probably be one of the most "pressured jobs" to be in.. but would it be fun to think that you are coming to work wrapping gifts?? I might even end up asking myself if I am actually working…) I just think wrapping gifts is a great therapy and good for the self-esteem.. its a great therapy because you can be creative and work with your hands… good for the self-esteem because it sort of reminds you daily that there is still generosity in the world. And besides, it tickles your imagination thinking about how the recipient of the gift will unravel the little bundle of surprise he has been given and how his eyes twinkle when it is handed to him… (sorry, I can be overly dramatic with these things….)
9. Children’s book storyteller or story reader… are there actually people who do this for a living? If there are, please let me know where I should be sending my resume?? To be surrounded by young minds and to be in a position where you can help mold minds is a nice thing to be part of… aside from that, you can be childlike again and relive these stories with them…. You can travel without having to take a step and you can see people, places and things by just closing your eyes…. (I know, too theatrical.. but remind me again whose blog this is??)
10. PA for Ellen de Generes…. ok, so it might not sound like a logical idea to put this in my list but believe me, this has a deeply rooted reason for being… I don’t just want to be a PA because she is famous or what.. I want to be one because I think she is fun and funny and a true person. I see her on her TV show and she is not like any of the stars, she seems like such a real person. I feel like if I were a star, I would be her.. Funny, fun, wears sneakers all the time, cracks the most satiric jokes at times, cool and elegant without an effort! If I were to be someones Personal Assistant (or "dakilang alalay"), it would be her!!!
Hmmmm… this is definitely not the end of my list but I have to stop or my wonderful and beloved nephew will never take his mind off getting his hands on the computer – because he sees me doing so and has this tendency to IMITATE whatever we do…. So, I am going to end my list at 10 for now but if I get more PC-time later, I will add to this list…
10 on my list for now???? Well, what do you know… there are actually a lot of jobs I love to do…. Hmmm… why am I not surprised that even if I said I DON’T WANT TO WORK FOREVER, there just are things I might consider ACTUALLY doing forever…
nmed @ 12:30noon
December 23, 2007, Sunday @ home
I don’t want to work FOREVER!!!
I know that is basically the only way to survive in this world of ours but pardon my seemingly lazy first statement but I REALLY DO NOT WANT TO WORK MY A** OFF FOREVER! And by work, I mean literally reporting for work in a company that requires you 8-10 hours a day earning a 15th and 30th paycheck (or 5 and 20, whichever case applies..) Forgive me if I just hurt people’s feelings by being so pessimistic about work but I can’t stand the thought of slaving myself over something just so I could get that paycheck every half of the month… (NO, just in case you are trying to read between the lines and thinking to yourself that I do not need the money, you are absolutely mistaken, I DO need the money more than anything else! How else can I survive without it in a world where nothing is for free??)
But to keep you from still trying to read between the lines, let me just tell you why, speculating is not always good, you know! (Even if I do that most of the time myself, I will not recommend it to everyone..)
If it makes you feel any better (and it lessens your thoughts on me being a Lazy-A**), I am actually one who has workaholic tendencies IF I do work and even if I HATE my work! Yes, totally opposite of what I actually just blurted out on the first line, right? Yep, I HATE to work but if I do, I LOVE to work!!! Grrr…. again, need I remind you that W is my middle name, and it stands for Weird?
Really though, the reason I do not want to work forever is because I know that is not my calling in life… I have a higher calling (nope, not in the religious sense) and that is NOT TO BE AN EMPLOYEE ALL MY LIFE BUT BE A BUSINESSMAN INSTEAD.. (I had to use the male version of the word as it is more appropriately coined here, more literally than figuratively really.. hehehehe).
I think and KNOW in my heart that I am at my best when I work (meaning do business, in this particular sentence) in my own time, my own pace and with myself as my own boss. I do better and actually feel better because I know that I am doing it for myself (sure, sounds like a selfish scheme right?) But what I am really trying to get at is that you are more motivated because it is ALL yours – if it fails then you suffer, if it succeeds then you succeed! You are not compromising someone else’s lives in the process like you do when you work for other people. Think of it this way, when you work for them there are a lot of things you can compromise – – – the company, your colleagues, your suppliers, your job and a lot more but if you only have yourself to worry about then that takes a whole lot out of the equation!! The downside though is, if everything you do happens to fail (heaven forbid!), you just have yourself to blame… not a pretty sight since we all love to put blame on others too because it makes us feel a lot better in the process.
So, in connection with my first statement… I am trying to re-structure my life and I am planning ahead so I can ultimately have time to actually stop working and start running my own business.. It might not be a million-dollar empire (peso is more appropriate, true, but I like the sound of million-dollar) but hopefully something that will be enough to keep me from being tied to an 8 to 10-hour office job but will still let me eat 3 meals a day and maybe a few snacks in between or even a few massages every now and then… (By the way, this plan of mine is not intended for myself alone but with the family I plan to have later on so I am dead serious here…)
I wanted to put this into writing so I am reminded every day that I need to work more NOW so I do not need to LATER!! (Opposites again huh??) Yep, it looks like that would be the path to take to reach my destination… Don’t you think it is weird and ironic that you have to do more of something now so you can do away with it later on??? Hmmmm…
But I guess it makes perfect sense, I will need to re-structure my life and follow the example given by the colony of ants in our house (which, I am sorry to say, I mass murdered when I was then young and naive, and now when I am no longer young but still naive, I guess I’ve only just learned the lesson…) — save all the things you have today for the rainy day. But to perfectly fit me, I am changing this to "work while you still have work today so you no longer have to do it later on." (By the way, this is under the presumption that I will have saved enough today to actually open my own business one day…)
But since great things start from small beginnings (as one gender-challenged former classmate of mine said or sang), I have started to do something today…. Something I did before but stopped doing, I will save more of my earnings by spending less on non-essentials… I will save whatever I can save, because its my future that is at stake here…
I just don’t wanna work forever!!! I don’t want to work until I die…. or worse die while working or because of working…. heck no!!!
Anybody here want to talk about irony???? I do.. How about buying a can-opener that (guess what??) cannot open a can??? Funny huh, but I hate to tell you its true… because I just spent how many minutes talking on the phone with a houseware personnel just explaining to him how this can-opener cannot open cans and how I can have it replaced and most importantly how, upon replacement can I be assured it will now serve its purpose for being – – – opening cans?? Which ironically, to drive to a point, I told him I can’t be the one to bring a can just so we can test if the can-opener can open cans… can it? (Ok, so the last part doesn’t really make sense but I just like to put that there for tongue twister purposes.. hehehehe…)
Or how about, when days when you feel like you’re the ugliest creature on earth, you just miraculously bump into your long time crush?? And why on days when you feel like you’re a supermodel (and note: actually look like one); there is never anyone who can visually support your claim, not even if you try your hardest to go to places a lot of these people frequent??? No paparazzi?? (Is this the correct spelling?)
Or on days when you absolutely need to find something but it is nowhere to be found.. and when you no longer need them, it just magically reappears again?? And get this, everytime they turn up again, they seem to be in the most noticeable of places when you could swear you’ve looked in every nook and cranny just to find it before??
And, please, tell me why, when you only have enough money in your pocket to pay for a jeepney ride home, you get all these cravings of food, clothes, stuff and everything else??? Things which require money literally come to life and call you to them….. What is up with that??? But when you have the money to spend, you don’t want to eat or buy anything, its like you’ve totally lost your appetite for them??? (Or does this just apply mostly to me??)
And lastly, why on earth do people you gossip about (ahem, I mean, people in your conversations), suddenly appear everytime you talk about them or just after you talk about them????? Do they have x-ray hearing or something and they know people are talking about them?? (We’ll except maybe for the people who suffer from extreme paranoia, who always think people are talking about them, geez..)
Or why it is a lot easier to say I hate you than it is to say I love you???
Why???
Isn’t it ironic, don’t you think???
12/06/07 Thursday @ 1:38PM by nmed
Yesterday, Monday, August 6, my beloved Itoy and I spent the whole day together….. we ate BBQ somewhere in Colon, bought 1/4 atis to eat, drove thru SRP or the South Reclamation Project in a motorcycle, went window-shopping at G.Fiesta Mall (a.k.a. Gaisano Tabunok), went to a vulcanizing shop to get some air into our almost flat tire, went back to Cebu thru the SRP, stopped at SRP for a while to watch the sea and get some sea breeze until we spotted 2 police cars heading our way and left as we were scared we weren’t allowed to park there, went to Greenwich Raintree Mall to eat a family-sized Hawaiian pizza, looked at one punk store in Raintree Mall, had a 30-minute foot massage at a Thai massage parlor still in Raintree Mall, and finished the day off by sitting in the grassy areas of I.T. Park just talking and looking at the view and ohhhh trying to get my hands on a "I-thought-was-cute-but-I-was-wrong-because-it-was-evil chihuahua" who kept on barking at the other Labrador pet. (Did I spell the breed right?)
Wow! That was a long sentence… Anyway, I just wanted to enumarate my day so you can get a glimpse of how extremely simple it was but amidst that, it was a wonderful and truly marvelous one. Sure, a lot of people would say that a day like yesterday isn’t even half of the great days they’ve had but heck, who cares, yesterday was a wonderful one! And I can tell you why:
First and foremost, yesterday was a great day because I was with the person I love and I cherish every bit of moment we spend together. The little jokes we shared, the BBQ we shared – – the chicken head I ate was scrumptuous even!, the time he tickled me almost pink and I accidentally hit his nose – – or maybe I did that on purpose so he would stop, cuz I’m a very ticklish person and I could just die right there if he didn’t stop, or even just the joke he pulled when he wore his helmet while lying on the grass listening to the music on his cellphone and gazing at the cloudy skies – – there were little droplets of rain falling then.
I dunno, I guess I am a person who laughs and cries at the silliest of things and finds happinness in even a small matter as a blade of grass.
You see, my beloved and I have been in a relationship for 8 years, and it may even seem like all we do is everything monotonous but its not. We still find joy in the littlest and simplest of things and that is what keeps us together and what makes us want to be with each other still. For anyone else, the first paragraph would have been a nonsense and totally ordinary enumeration of what happened on a single day but for me, its not, it a whole love story and I would proudly share it with the world…. They can choose to mock my simple-mindedness or they can relish and share with me my joys and my pride that I have loved and I am loved and that no matter how long it has been – – – I still see, feel and can create sparks in our relationship – – – and that is something not everyone can say for themselves. Geez, that last line made me a little teary-eyed… Aww… Silly me.. :0)
Why am I getting all sentimental? Because I see other people in relationships and not having fun and enjoying it, a lot of them are just in the relationship and not making the most out of it. Some are even married, have kids but deep inside they are not satisfied and are unhappy. I wish they would enjoy it and cherish the moment. Sure, I know that the world has problems and they too have problems but what good will it do if people always think of the problems and not see the happy things that probably are right under their noses? Problems will always be there but those "little moments" when you fail to see and enjoy them, will float away – – – forgotten and never discovered. But when you do see them and lavish in the bliss it offers you, it will become lasting memories – – – ones you can keep, share, remember, and visit every now and then.
I say this, although, I can’t really say I am an expert at it, but I think that when one is old and alone, the memories that keep them afloat and the ones they cling to aren’t the times when they hurdled and juggled problems but the ones that made them smile and laugh. So, why not create those memories so you have a bankful of them to visit when your body stops to journey and only your mind does. I urge you to go out and celebrate life, feel the seabreeze, climb a tree and eat the fruit that you see (of course the edible ones), lie down on grassy parks, bathe in the rain, eat something new, do a lot of things and do this with the people you love. If all these aren’t appealing to you, then get a different perspective, do something ordinary and see it it in an extraordinary way – – go to the grocery store and experience how it is to shop and not look at the prices, then after, you can always return the ones you can’t afford but hey at least you tried! You might want to aplogize to the grocery workers though as they will have to restock them all over again.
I have created my memory.. I wanted to write an entry on my journal about my day yesterday but I got way too tired to write and so directly went to bed – – yes, without washing off even. Hehe.. eew!! Nah, if you miss a half bath once in a while, that won’t kill yah! And so I decided to create an e-journal, hoping that my experience stops not only for my reading and writing pleasure but also for others as well. I never will know, but I might have inspired someone in my own little way….
What are you waiting for?? Create your own moments! If there are already present, then create sparks!!
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